I've been feeling hella lonely lately. No, not in the horny sense.
Yes, I said horny. Got a problem with that?
I know people are always telling me that they're there for me whenever I need them. But that's not always true. People don't always mean what they say.
Like a few minutes ago.
I needed someone to talk to. So that someone could distract me from my sudden urge to puke out all of today's food.
Yes. I've crossed over from Ana to Mia.
Sick? Yes. Twisted? Yeah. Painful? Fuck yeah. Satisfying? You guys have no idea.
I've always wanted to try being bulimic. Except, whenever I shove my hand down my throat *Yes, my hand. It fits in there. Wanna see? LMAO.* nothing comes out. Talk about sucky shit.
So I decided on being anorexic instead. However, whenever people find out that I'm anorexic, they always go, "Really? Anorexic ka? Hindi naman halata eh. 'Di ka naman payat eh."
A big FUCK YOU to all you assholes who never fail to make me feel like a fucking cow. It always works.
Yes, I'm cranky. This is what being lonely does to me.
So anywho. I did the whole Mia thing today.
I spent half an hour with my hand in my mouth and my head in the toilet, and nothing would come out.
Until finally it came.
All that disgusting food finally outta my system. And I found out that I'm not a very noisy hurler too. I throw up in a very lady-like, quiet manner. I don't retch like a drunk.
Okay, I must be grossing you guys out. And all those boys who would've been interested to hook up with me are all probably crossing me off their "who to screw over next" list.
Whatever.
I feel alot better now than I did a few hours ago. So be happy for me. It's alot better than slitting my wrists or OD-ing on some drug. Which by the way, does not work with me. Believe me, I've tried, and I'm indestructible.
*Whew*
Glad I've gotten all that out. Both the gross food and the stress I mean.
I'm going to go and cause serious physical stress on myself now. Relax, it's called exercise. I'm going to try my hardest to do heavy cardio, even if it's bad for my heart and all.
*Weeeeh*
See y'all when I see y'all.
A bien tot, mes amis!
Ciao, bellas!
♥♥♥ mwa :p
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